June 23^rd, 2004

I was in the bathroom, I heard you were brushing your teeth at the washbasin, but after I finished and got out from bathroom, there was something strange, I still heard water flow from the washbasin, ‘why daddy brush his teeth so long?’, I went to the kitchen and I got daddy was laid down on the floor, unconscious and in convulsion. I was panic and called mom who had just went to the office then brought daddy to the hospital…

After CT-scan, we knew that daddy had a bleeding in his brain (Right frontal lobe) and had to have operation called craniotomy immediately to evacuate the blood. I had just graduated from senior high school at the moment and really could not imagine how scared operation on the brain that should open the skull..

Praise God, the operation was successful, daddy could went back to his usual life and there was no grievance..

 

October 23^rd, 2004

Daddy became unconscious and in convulsion again, I thought “was it bleeding again in his brain?” Daddy took to Elizabet hospital. After CT-scan, there was no new disorder in his brain.. we all relieved, daddy could went home. At one occasion daddy ever said, ”will I pass the 50 years old age after this operation?”, (for information, daddy was born in 3^rd January 1955), “of course you will”, I answered.

 

November 21^st, 2004

Daddy had convulsion again, this time when he was riding a motorcycle with mom, lucky for them he was fell down after the motorcycle run slowly, since that moment, daddy was forbidden to ride a motorcycle.. There were 3 times convulsion again in December and we realized that it was the sequele or remain symptoms for his brain bleeding so he like had an epilepsy, since that moment daddy took epilepsy drug to control his convulsion. For information, at the moment I was starting studied in the faculty of medicine Diponegoro University, I knew daddy was very proud of this, so I promised that I would study hard for him..

 

2005-2008

Daddy had 16 times convulsion in 2005, 15 times convulsion in 2006, 11 times convulsion in 2007 and 7 times convulsion in 2008, honestly I was glad that the frequency was decreased every year, I was sure that the seizure will gone..

 

May 15th 2009

In 2009 daddy had just got seizure once in January, but in May 15^th, after I have a night shift in Surgery, I called by mom if daddy was brought to hospital because he could not move his right arm and leg…OMG…I really frightened out, daddy had a STROKE.. and it made his right side (his active side) paralyzed, hah…I’d just hope at least daddy could walk again.. Daddy got 4 seizures after this stroke

 

September 25th 2009

Daddy had much practices for walking, but on those day, dad seems different, he was very limp, I’d thought it was just ordinary fever, but I felt it was different, so we brought dad to the hospital again, and it was true daddy had 2^nd STROKE..GOSHH..why did it happen so fast,. Now his left side also paralyzed, dad could not speak and even very difficult to sit… I’d just hope there was no following stroke for dad..

 

February 18th 2010

Things became worst.. Mom was in Jakarta, Dad got a high fever.. I had give symptomatic drugs and check his blood laboratory because suspect of Dengue fever.. but the laboratory result that it was not Dengue fever, but the fever still high, his condition also bad because didn’t response with any pain stimulation, so I brought again dad to the hospital, the doctor said it was a SEPSIS and he should take a ventilator, but I with many consideration I decide to refuse the ventilator.. Mom come 2 days after admission.. from this time I realized that dad’s life would not last longer..

 

April 9th 2010

I was had my last shift in internal medicine, in the morning I was called by my sister that dad’s condition was very bad and she could not feel his pulse..OMG…was that really happened..I was went home and Dad had passed away… I was really sad, I could not be on his side when he died…

 

thanks God for releasing his suffer.. he was a great dad for me… although you were often angry, but I know you love us very much, thank you for your care and love, forgive me for all my mistakes to you… I regret you would not watch my graduation but I promise to you that I will study hard and become a great doctor…

Thanks for my sweetheart Vania that made Dad’s last birthday really mean for dad and that was my unforgettable memory when I did something last time for dad..

 

LOVE YOU ALWAYS DAD…

 

 

 

In memoriam Yohanes Avella Slamet Hadiyanto (Yauw Tauw Gwan)

January 3^rd 1955 – April 9^th 2010